I’m not in the mood for Passover this year, especially because my health has been getting worse and Passover is one of the most preparation heavy holidays on the Jewish calendar, not just because you have to change your entire diet for a week (Matza instead of leavened bread, or anything with leavening in it, or anything with beans or corn or rice in it, if you are of Ashkenazi descent and Orthodox), but you also have to clean the whole house to make sure there’s no leavened bread hidden behind the sofa or between the cushions (Cricket likes to bury her treats for later), and then you have to find a Seder to go to and/or cook for a Seder.
For most of my adult life I’ve been Passover-averse, in large part because my father made a mess of it. As a little kid, I loved Passover, especially going to Seders at my grandfather’s house (Mom’s father). But as my father became more religious he decided that everything my brother and I had been taught about Judaism was wrong. His new rules were demeaning and punitive and took the joy out of all the holidays, but especially Passover, which, if the rules are followed rigidly, can be something of a nightmare. As an adult, it took me a long time to even be able to walk into a synagogue, let alone go to services again. And even after we joined our current synagogue, eleven years ago, and I started to go to services every week, I still mostly pretended that Passover was just another week of the year. But as a synagogue school teacher, I can’t ignore it, because I have to teach it.
Part of me wishes I had the time to teach my students about Passover the way I learned it as a kid at my Jewish Day School. In first grade, we learned Echad Mi Yodea (Who Knows One?) in Yiddish, and each year we had a model Seder and learned tons of songs and prayers and stories and traditions. And then classes ended a few days before Passover so we could be home to help with the special food shopping, and changing over the dishes, and searching for chametz (leavened bread, like bread crumbs or cereal) with a kit we got from school, made of a small white paper bag, a feather, a wooden spoon, and a candle. The search for chametz is a kid-friendly ritual done in the dark on the night before the first Seder, where the adults hide little piles of chametz for the kids to find (with a candle to see by, and a feather and spoon for collecting the chametz into the paper bag, and then the whole kit is burned), all to symbolize the official transition from a house full of chametz to a house that is kosher for Passover.
I’d love to share these rituals with my students, but I can’t figure out how to do it in our small classroom and the few minutes we have available between all of the other things they need to learn. I’m hoping that some of the girls in my class will come to the Women’s Seder at the synagogue, which is kind of like a grown-up Model Seder, with all of the handwashing and singing and blessings and rituals you could ask for. It’s scheduled ahead of Passover on the assumption that the actual family Seders will require women to do the cooking and cleaning and serving and therefore not really get the chance to focus on the meaning of the holiday itself. And because it’s a Seder for women, the pronouns in the blessings will be changed (because in the traditional blessings the pronouns are all male), and we will consider the female characters in the story who have generally been left out, and we’ll eat food prepared by someone else and sing songs written by women.
If I had the energy, and the time, and the money, I would love to have a Model Seder with my students, where we could try dishes from Jewish communities around the world: like Moroccan Dafina stew, and Italian fried artichokes, and Turkish leek meatballs, and especially Ethiopian Matzah made with chickpea flour. And then we could try out different kinds of rituals, like the way the Ethiopians break their dishes before Passover (to avoid any chance of having chametz in their food over Passover), and some Sephardi Jews hit each other with scallions to simulate the way the slaves were beaten (well, maybe not that one), or the tradition where the Seder participants carry a heavy bag around the table to remind them of the burdens of slavery. And then, of course, the kids would obsess together over what they should ask for from their parents as rewards for finding the hidden piece of Matza (the Afikomen) at their own Seders.
That’s what I’d like to do, but I don’t have the classroom time to do it. And, more importantly, I really don’t have the energy. When I’m not in school with my students lately, I’m generally home in my pajamas, resting, or at least trying to. To be honest, I’ve spent most of my time recently binging past seasons of the Great British Baking Show on Netflix (because I finally have access to all of the seasons I missed after they moved from PBS to Netflix in the States).
If I get a magical spurt of energy before Passover, I might do some vacuuming and search through the couch cushions for Cricket’s hidden crumbs, but once synagogue school goes on vacation, it’s likely that I will spend most of the holiday just resting, and hoping that that will be enough to give me the strength to finish out the synagogue school year with my kids.
And, really, if I can do that, I’ll be happy.
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Very interesting insight into various Passover practices. Thank you for explains and personalizing it so beautifully.
My watching the Great British Baking Show was sporadic, but when I did catch it, I really enjoyed it. Take care Rachel!
It’s so much fun!
Yes, it is.
Hope you have a good Pesach 💙
You are a good teacher to your students and to us readers. Thank you for this nice lesson today.
Thank you so much!
I hope you feel better soon and more energetic. What you explained about Passover seems to be a hectic ritual!
Passover is A LOT!
Yes I can imagine. Specially if you aren’t feeling up to it. Hugs.
Thanks, Rachel, for sharing about your Passover experiences. I didn’t realise it could be so complex. I hope your health improves sufficiently for you to feel at peace with what you can accomplish.
Yes! I have been binging The Great British Baking Show, too!
I made it through ALL the available seasons – a friend told me her 12 year old son loved the show, and I started watching it, got hooked, and couldn’t leave it alone.
Good luck with your health issues – I hope you have the strength to enjoy the rest of your year…when we don’t have have our health, life is much more difficult.
Noel Fielding is addictive!
As you might expect, I’m in love with Prue!!
I enjoy learning about Jewish practices! Thanks for your “instrruction”. I thought I knew what Passover was about, now I realize there’s a lot more to the observation of Passover than I could have guessed.
Don’t wear yourself out, Rachel. I think He understands!
It is sad when any religion takes on the attitude of negativity (you must do this~!) instead of the joy of the religion. So often this happens and we then loose the love of God withing the ceremonies, instead of looking forward to celebrating them.
It’s great to be reminded of Jewish practices. My mother married a Jew nine years after my dad died. I knew some of the traditions, but you always tell me more about them.
I’m so glad!
I’m so sorry you’re having such challenging health issues, Rachel. I always learn so much from your posts, including today about intricacies of Passover.
Thank you so much!
I hope you feel better soon. It was nice to learn about the Passover traditions. Take care.
Clean and Kosher for Passover is such an arduous undertaking. I remember my helping my grandma clean, for reasons I don’t remember I loved cleaning with her. I’m sure she cleaned again after I went home because I probably wasn’t capable of getting the job done to the level of perfection she required but she wouldn’t have ever told me.
My book club recently read The People of the Book, by Geraldine Brooks and only 2 of us are Jewish. The others struggled with a lot of the Hebrew and terms related to the Haggadah including not knowing what a Haggadah was which was the main subject of the book. You do such a nice job explaining things to those who don’t know the traditions and for those of us who do, it’s a nice way to think of our own memories.
Thank you so much!
Yes, Rachel, you are a born educator: gentle, witty, and wise. Hope your health takes a positive turn soon.
Thank you so much!
I hope you have a good Passover, even without a seder. Get some rest.
Thank you for the peek into Passover. I was raised in a “mildly Methodist” family. There is so much of the different religions that I’m unfamiliar with. Your explanations are so easy to understand. Please take care of yourself, you deserve the rest.
Thank you so much!
I hope you heal very quickly and soon. Maybe you could create a pamphlet of some kind?
Thank you! Do you mean a pamphlet on Passover for the kids?
That was interesting and thanks for inspiring a few dishes that I might make in the future.
I do hope you feel better soon Rachel. Be kind to yourself!
Thank you! I will try!
Loving that in that last photo Cricket and Ellie together are kinda shaped like a heart. Heartwarming post, especially that picture connecting to the love and rest you write about.
Thank you so much!
“like the way the Ethiopians break their dishes before Passover (to avoid any chance of having chametz in their food over Passover)”
Or just have less dishes to wash afterwards? 😀
I hope you feel better soon
Praying for you and that magical spurt of energy, Rachel.
Thank you so much!
Be good to yourself and rest! I love your dogs are they weechons? Xx
Thank you! Cricket is a Cockapoo and Ellie is a Havanese.
Love your ideas for teaching about Passover. Wishing you a sweet and peaceful holiday
Thank you! And to you!
From your blogs, it is clear that you are an outstanding teacher. Your students are blessed to have you. You are so right about manmade rules and “religion” spoiling God for us. I find great freedom and joy through the Holy Spirit of Jesus, but I know that is not what you believe. So may the Lord strengthen you for your teaching and everyday life and send you healing.
I conducted our Seder again this year with just the two of us. No crowds. just love!